Morning Chases Night Away

Even as the night goes unwillingly and it’s darkness clings to the remaining hours not even the fumbling fingers of an old man on a keyboard can withstand lightnesses early arrival. I’ll pay for this later I tell myself but laying claim to these early morning routines allows me the tranquility that only me, the birds, and a few moist worms can enjoy alone for our reprieve.

I have had a hint at the news while waiting for the water to boil for the coffee and I won’t be turning that back on. One of my tasks that awaits me is how to disconnect cable while keeping my landline phone and the internet.

Hope springs eternal is still the mantra with the weather though compared to other parts of our country we really don’t have anything to complain about. Playing with fonts and opening size letters are all I can do to keep my fingers moving. Where did the Tiger go that I had planned to feature in this article. Let me go try and find him.

Glenwood School For Boys and the Journey From Rejection To Prison

Glenwood School for Boys and the Journey from Rejection to Prison

I got sent to Glenwood School for Boys the same year the German submarine U-505 rolled up to the Museum of Science and Industry. I grew up at 62nd and Dorchester on Chicago’s South Side—close enough that the museum was practically home turf. Everyone was talking about the submarine. But I wasn’t there to see it. I was already gone.

Out of four kids, I was the one sent away. My older sister had been left on the doorstep of Lutheran General Services shortly after she was born. You’d think my parents would’ve figured out then that maybe they weren’t cut out for raising children. But no. They kept trying. And when it came time to thin the load, I was the one they chose.

Glenwood wasn’t all bad. It wasn’t all good, either. I was small, quiet, the second son of an abusive, alcoholic bartender. At home I’d already learned that shoes were meant to be thrown, words meant to wound. At Glenwood, I learned something else—that if you bury yourself in books and schoolwork, you can almost disappear. That’s what I did my first year.

Then came Flag Day, 1955.

They called out a name—“Private Jonathan Thomson.” Boys looked around, whispering. “That’s you, they mean you.” My name wasn’t Jonathan. But on my first day, a captain had decided it was. So that’s what stuck.

I walked stiffly forward, confused, until they handed me a medal. Later I learned it was for the top grades in the entire school. I was twelve years old, standing on a stage under a name that wasn’t mine, holding a medal I didn’t know I’d earned. And in the audience, for the first time in nine months, sat my mother. Her first visit. Watching me succeed from a distance.

That was Glenwood in a nutshell: success with a false name, achievement mixed with rejection.

I did find things to cling to there. I loved marching. The rhythm, the loyalty, the sense of belonging to something bigger. I hated cruel authority, but I loved discipline. By my last two years, our company was winning the Flag Day marching competition, and I was leading the second column.

But popularity? Never. I wasn’t an athlete. I wasn’t the boy with a dad in the stands. My dad didn’t play catch. He hurled shoes.

The summer of ’56 at Camp Glenwood lit the match. The counselors that year were mean, and rebellion was in the air. A bunch of us hatched a plan—escape across the lake. We stole life preservers, swam across, thought we’d made it. But waiting for us on the other side were the men we thought we’d left behind. They marched us all the way back.

That was my first real taste of rebellion. After that, the fuse inside me was burning.

The next year I went to an eye doctor in Homewood. Instead of waiting for the return car, I wandered off. Blurred vision, walking aimlessly, I wound up in Hazelcrest. A man called my name. I thought he was a family friend. Turns out, he was my mother’s new husband. News to me.

I hadn’t even known she’d remarried. Hadn’t known she lived just down the road. For years, I’d believed I was at Glenwood because “we can’t afford you.” But now I knew. She had a new family. I wasn’t part of it.

By 1957, my siblings were home. I wasn’t. And bitterness became my closest companion.

Seventh and eighth grade blurred through three Catholic schools. I never finished grade school. At thirteen, I was already on juvenile parole for stealing cars.

The first one was almost an accident. A man delivering furniture asked for directions. I climbed in to help. When he left the car running, I slid behind the wheel and drove off. The furniture went flying out the back. I just kept driving.

It became a habit. Every time anger welled up, I stole a car.

And sure enough, I climbed the ladder of the justice system one rung at a time: St. Charles. Sheridan. Ashland. Kentucky. El Reno, Oklahoma. Each stop another lesson in how to be hardened.

When I was eight, after being caught shoplifting, my mother had told me: “You keep on like this and you’ll end up just like your father. You’ll be in prison before you’re twenty-one.”

She was right.

I entered Marion Federal Penitentiary just months before my twenty-first birthday. Marion was built to replace Alcatraz, and by the time I walked in, the older cons from the Rock were long gone. In their place was a younger, tougher, more reckless crew. I was one of them.

Seventeen and a half years of my next two decades would be served behind bars. What started with cars ended with armed robbery. In July of 1971, at age twenty-six, I robbed a bank in St. Louis. I was already worn out. I resigned myself to prison for life.

That’s the journey Glenwood helped set in motion.

Glenwood gave me pride in books and medals. It gave me structure, loyalty, and marching drills. But it also gave me bitterness, rebellion, and the cold realization that rejection was my inheritance.

That was my Glenwood School for Boys. And that was my road from rejection to prison.

REFLECTIONS: YOU JUST DON’T KNOW

 The former prison school teacher and the 17 1/2 year(s) ex-convict watched JUST MERCY last night. It has been 42 years since I left prison behind, and it only took hearing the slamming of the prison cells to take me back, like a Pavlov dog. If you have never been shackled, strip searched and made to feel less than a man, if you’ve never been handcuffed and laying on the ground with two cops kicking you in the head and side, YOU JUST DON’T KNOW. To feel dehumanized by your captor, with no recourse, knowing he can take your life…and you have to take every humiliation he throws at you. I’ve had a very nervous, enraged cop, jumping up and down screaming in my ear “YOU WANNA DIE!!! all the while with a gun at the back of my head

, YOU JUST DON’T KNOW. 42 years and it all comes rushing back like it was yesterday. I know the stench of powerlessness, hopelessness, nothing is ever going to change. You grow hard, cold, filled with hate and rage waits to burst forth at the smallest provocation. And then, YOU DON’T CARE. And then, in this condition they release you into society. But for the prison school teacher, who told me God could change my life, and that He did, and a small group of Christians took me into their home, I would be still in prison adding to the dozen prisons I’ve already been in. YOU JUST DON’T KNOW. So I know the rage, the hopelessness, HOW LONG? And left to politicians whose only vested interest is in the POWER they hold and wield, Nothing is going to change. So that leaves it to you CHRISTIANS, who believe in the God who created the world, can CHANGE THE WORLD. As I said to God, “I can’t do it.” YOU’RE GOING TO HAVE TO DO IT. Christians need to step to the forefront and put your FAITH on the line and challenge the power bearers, the bureaucracies, that hold down the powerless, the impoverished. Because when the protests stop and the rage has been sapped, They’re still going to have that power, and if that power falls into the wrongs hands…. We need healing, reconciliation, empowerment, and forgiveness and LOVE. The End

Covid Era Rant

John Thomson

March 11, 2020  · 

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So, who will endure the brunt of my rage now that I no longer am sick. #1 on my list is so crowded with contenders we should probably have a playoff amongst them to see who is going to win my slathering of contempt award. I’ll tell you, this is about the most okiest doke thing imaginable under the sun. Just for that I am going to take my grandkids to the movies (in a crowd of sniffling, sneezing, coughing kids you can find.) I won’t wear a mask, I’ll resurrect an old What Me Worry Face that Alfred E Newman left somewhere. I’ll probably have to find it on Ebay or Amazon but I know ones out there somewhere.

That Sport’s have acquiesced to this fraudulent Armageddon and brought the death knell to about most every sport imaginable, it will be there own undoing. People will find that the money they have saved from attending these events can be better used elsewhere in their budgets. Add to that the cost of gas they are saving these days and they can drive to Grandma’s House We Go. OH BOY, those incessantly long boring Awards Shows for this, that, and the other. Those have to go as well.

So, I past on the article that was going to tell me the HIDDEN TRUTHS ABOUT CYRUS, but what really came to mind. All of you who have been clamoring to get your first book written, NOW IS THE TIME. Write that book, all the material is all over the place. Hardly any research is necessary. WHO THOUGHT WASHING YOUR HANDS COULD BE SO SEXY. There you are, a title for your book ready made. The Possibilities are endless. And you know who is really licking their chops over this are the Houston (Cheating) Astros. They have been knocked off the front page and are competing with the comics for attention.

The most frightening aspect about all this is that there are no rules for engagement. We’ve never had a time such as this, so there is no protocol to follow. Make up your own as you go, Surely, you can find a wheel to reinvent. Who thought ‘wash your hands’ could ever unseat Nancy Reagan’s “Just Say No” or Nike’s Just Do It” And especially keep an eye on those who are attempting to tell you what to do. There is a hidden motive behind every declaration disguised in sheep’s clothing that the boogie man is going to get you if you don’t pay heed,

Okay, I’m done. All better, now that I have gotten that off my chest. Go have yourself a field day before the little men in white coats come to getcha.

This Blog Is Discombobulated

Now I have to unbobulate it. Seriously, I never know what this blog is doing or how to use it because WordPress keeps changing its functionality. Nevertheless, I digress. I am pausing on this day of celebration from whence I came from. 47 years ago I left prison behind for the last time. I am inclined to not labour you with my struggles from then, I’ve done that in past years. Today it is all about celebration, so tonight we go to the Texas Longhorn Steakhouse in Lincolnwood. Tomorrow we will center on where we are going in the future. And when you are 80 and looking toward the future that can be daunting in itself because you don’t know if you are looking that far down the road.

Facebook…Memories

First, a quick update on my Cutting Out Sugar exercise. After a two week experiment I decided to continue and see where it takes me. Initially I lost 7 and now 10 lbs, given I don’t know what I weighed when I started. I am at 240 and counting. I learned from EMMA, after an inquiry that my consumption of Whole Milk could be contributing to what my current weight is. I drink a lot of milk, I love milk, if milk were whiskey I would be drunk all day. So I am going to check out what’s going from Whole Milk to 2% does.

So last Friday night my wife and friend, Evangeline, (an International Grad student from India) were making 100 Chocolate Chip Cookies for a Syrian Women’s Meal at church the next day. Not exactly the environment you want to be in when you are cutting out sugars. We are legendary when it comes to making CCC’s. We sold them for 18 years at the annual Custer Street Fair prior to COVID. Now the fair is long since gone.

I considered myself as not having done to bad in that I only had two that night, but then they bought the left overs back and I had two more…and two more, until a dozen or so had been consumed. No more making cookies…

This just in

I had my neighbor drive me down to the hospital to retrieve some medicines (that total over $3,000.00) and as I extricated myself from the van/car I immediately noticed a remarkable improvement on my gait. I was walking as if I could walk a considerable distance. It was if I had gotten my ability to walk again. There wasn’t any wood to knock on so I kept it to myself. I’m anxious to tomorrow to get here so I can test the distance to see if it is definitely in improvement or luck.

Memories

If you have been on Facebook any length of time you are receiving Memories, perhaps on a daily basis. What I appreciate about them is the reflection they provide to the years gone by. You see your children grow up all over again. They remind you of some of your favorite pictures you’ve taken and bring back the good times you have had down through the years. They also recall old friends who sadly have passed away and you remember how you enjoyed them and their comments.

As we close out yet another year, here’s to the memories.

Now That You Have Quit Sugar

It would be accurate to say that I am a sugar addict. However, I did not set out to quit sugar permanently. I do not have the will power to change a life long addiction. The idea was more of a whim. “Can I go a week without sugar?” It was more of a challenge to myself. Though I lack the will power I can be stubborn.

Hooray!!! I did it. And having done it, I went to the ‘office’ and as was my usual habit, I bought a Zinger, (a chocolate Twinkie if you will) and a 8 oz. bottle of chocolate milk. Can chocolate be an addiction? My ego wasn’t deflated. I had accomplished what I had intended to do, go a week without sugar. But could I go longer and in fact could I permanently quit sugar. Paying for my Zinger and chocolate milk I observed the monetary quotient, and therein lied another motivational aspect.

I should go back and describe my ‘office’. It contains a Dunkin Donut, a Subway, a Foodmart that sells considerably more than food and is where one pays for the gas they purchase. In other words a Shell Gas Station. I call it my ‘office’ because it has all the amenities one would want for someone like me who at 80 has long since retired from the workforce.

Ten years ago, it was my habit (there’s that word again) to go to the office and may or may not for to get gas for the car. I would first go to Dunkin’ Donuts and purchase a hot cup of medium black coffee and 2 donuts. Approximately, this would cost $4. Then over to the food mart side and buy a pack of cigarettes. Another $11 (at that time.) I did this, I kid you not, everyday. A brain storm washed over me calculating how much I just spent; every day, week, month and year. Holy Moly… I quit right there…

I had been a smoker all my life. I loved smoking. But the thought of me spending $15 a day (and I had been for awhile) was to much for me. I had no plan, I just did it, cold turkey. In spite of the advice that people who quit ‘cold turkey’ don’t last, I was determined. For me, 3 days was the critical moment. I had tried to quit many times before and in fact once I did quit for 7 years but a suicide in the family brought together all my family who also smoked and I caved.

I determined this time would be different. 3 days, a week, a month, and on and on until I forgot how long it had been since I did quit. All I knew was that it had been a few years now. I’ll tell you who did know though, the guys behind the register at the ‘office’ they knew. 2014. So now its been 10 years and there is no threat of me ever going back.

I started over and went another week. I hadn’t weighed myself after going almost 2 weeks and when I did I had lost 7lbs. So, now I had another motivation to quit sugar for good. That looked like a tall order what with birthday parties, the holidays all coming up but like I said I am determined.

So, I decided to add bread to my NOT EATING list. Not for any weight loss reasons, I am not on a diet. Call it a regimen if you must call it anything. I do have diabetes II, COPD, congested heart failure, severe arthritis, etc. But I have had these for years now but this could benefit my A1c count. There’s no intended lesson to be learned here. I just thought I would put to words what my current life is like for me now. Happy Trails…


New Post…as opposed to say New York or Newfoundland

I tried to post about Thanksgiving but my computer is so discombobulated that I don’t know what I am doing any more. Fine, you all seem to be doing just fine wishing everyone gratitude’s and the like that I don’t need to be in there muddling everything all up.

Somehow the computer is taking a break from making my life a mess for the moment I might just get a word in edgewise.

In many ways the things I am thankful for are the things I don’t have anymore. Sports in any fashion. I don’t watch any of them nor do I miss them, for that I am thankful. I don’t live in Chicago, for that I am thankful. I don’t like Eberflus, Simon Cowell, Howie Mandel. Steve Harvey nor Walker Ranger. For that I am thankful.

Sugar, I don’t like sugar no more, but its really the zoo-zoos and wham-whams that have addicted me for years. I don’t like Reels on facebook, nor facebook itself. Now that most of my dislikes have been names I can move on to the good stull.

I like the young lady who told me “It was good to see you in church yesterday.” Even though I could not say the same thing in return. Her seemingly off hand statement opened the world to the one I live in now.

So let’s see how and if this will publish.